Meursault Dealing with Death

Unfortunately this year both my aunt and grandpa passed away in a matter of one week. And as I read the novel, especially the first chapter of Stranger, it really brought back some memories and feelings that I had and still have. I have been affected by many novels before, but this first chapter really made me engaged from the beginning because it hit home. And in a way I read about Meursault, and thought, he is so frustrating! How could he just sit there and even have a cigarette when is mother is right there, gone. Then I remembered everyone deals with death differently. I had never been through a family death in my entire life, and you see in movies, where the whole family comes together and sobs, and expresses their love and want for that person in that way. To be honest, when my grandpa and aunt died, i didn't have a dramatic experience. I was numb. I felt bad that I wasn't showing my emotion by crying and holding onto my other family members, but I realized everyone deals with it differently. And because of this, I have decided not to judge Meursalt, no one really knows how he truly felt at this point in the novel. Everyone is different.